You're A Failure! So What!

What’s so terrible about living on autopilot you may be thinking. Nothing, if you enjoy doing the same routine every day for the rest of your life.

Six years ago, I was living on autopilot and experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions. Majority of the time I was angry and depressed. Through my journey of anger and other emotional woes, I found joy in food. It didn’t matter if it was fried fatty foods, chocolate treats covered in ice cream, bowls of sweet juicy fruit or large salads served in what resembled small punch bowls (no dressing that’s where the calories hide I convinced myself). Before long, I only found happiness in food, and food became my addiction.

Since food became my new bestie, I gained more than 65lbs during my pregnancy. After the birth of my son, the weight stayed, and I didn’t like my new appearance. I avoided mirrors whenever I could.

In retrospect, I should have cried then, but I didn’t. Months later is when you find me a mess in my bathroom crying over my appearance, my health, and depression. I needed to cry it gave me the strength to open my eyes and mind to my new reality. I had to make necessary changes to my weight, health and overall life, so I did.

I stopped living on autopilot.

Another issue I endured while living on autopilot was memory loss. I couldn’t remember different moments of my life. I was so used to doing the same things every day, I couldn’t recall completing those tasks. Soon large chunks of my day were missing from my memory and I didn’t understand how I could forget so much. Especially when I was normally so detailed and focused.
Each of us has limited time on Earth and we don’t know when that moment expires. I don’t want to die with a bunch of regrets and wondering “what if”.

When my time is up, I want to know I followed my dreams and lived. Yes, there will be failure. Lots of it for some of us but so what. We began our life as failures. As a baby, we learn everything. We aren't born knowing how to talk, walk or take care of ourselves. We learn to accomplish those tasks through trial and error. Imagine how the world would be if most of our babies gave up every time they couldn’t accomplish something.

The same resilience and perseverance we develop as babies has to stay with us through adulthood. If not, our failures have a way of deflating our confidence and self-worth. That’s when we become dependent upon the safe choices and the safe life. The life with little chance of failure but there is also little gained from this life.

Success is not determined by your level of intelligence or how accomplished you are because everyone has failed at some point in their life. Yes, even billionaires can be failures. Anybody that say’s different is lying or too preoccupied to know they are failures.

Remember everyone makes mistakes and has moments that go wrong, maybe disastrous but convince yourself it will be better next time. Yes, there will be a next time. Prepare yourself for the moment and you will achieve success.

Everyone has a talent and a purpose, just discover what yours is. If you don’t know where to start, then start with your dreams. What are your dreams? Can those dreams be turned into goals? If so, how do you plan to accomplish your goals? Start now, today, don’t wait.

Your life has been placed on hold long enough, now go accomplish your dreams.
~Til next time!

Payton Freeman

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Payton Freeman

Publishing her first book about the challenges she and her family endured while caring for her mother. The book outlines healthy habits anyone can incorporate into his or her life. Follow her on Twitter to learn about up-and-coming projects and books.

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